Joseph threw himself on his father and wept over him and kissed him. (Genesis 50:1 KJV)
Loss = Sorrow – Loss of a Loved One
My heart broke that Monday morning, when I answered my cell phone. In shock, I ran out of work hysterically crying, racing the hour or so to get to my Mother. I needed to be near her. I needed her to know that I loved her and I was sorry. I was just trying to help and do what I thought was best for her, as she emotionally, physically and mentally fell apart.
She gave up, along with her body, but her spirit was lifted with God’s love. He carried her home to his Kingdom in Heaven. Healing completely – physically – no more pain, mentally – no more anguish or confusion, and emotionally protected in her Father’s arm for eternity.
After taking care of all the details for the past two and half weeks; looking around her home for the last time; a place that was filled with family love and friends. It was difficult to see it quiet and empty. Tears fell down my cheek as I said goodbye, but more like, “until we see each other again, within the presence of our Holy Father”.
It has only been three weeks and I know only time will heal. I grieved immensely, however, have not grieved the way I need too, since I handled all the final details. Now I need to grieve. My loss of my Mother, my friend, my companion; remembering our memories of sharing loving hugs and kisses, laughter, tears, daughter-mother talks, dining out, bible study and church, and just being with each other.
In Proverbs 14:13 – Even in laughter the heart is sorrowful; and the end of that mirth is heaviness.
As holidays approach, finding the strength I need can only come from my Father above. Emotions will be strong, tears will fall and joy will reappear. Maybe like a roller coaster, maybe like a running faucet, or maybe as gentle as a flower blooming, but healing will prevail. I will always love my mom dearly and miss her deeply.
In Psalm 13:2 – How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart daily?
Even though heartache, there’s joy. Don’t be ashamed to grieve. Don’t think expressing your emotions is a sign of weakness, and don’t try to appear strong to hide your feelings. Expressing your grief can help you deal with your intense sorrow.
Lord, in your presence we ask you to carry us in your loving arms everyday of our lives. Knowing your loving grace will heal our broken hearts, where sorrow will diminish and joyful memories remain.
Pocono Mountains PA